santa maria. pinta. niña... titanic.

Usually I'm not thankful for anything. I'm pretty sure everything I receive is either well-deserved, completely warranted, or just figures.

But, it is Thanksgiving. Or near it, sort of. Even I, on the holiest of all holidays centered around over-eating, swallow my pride and bitterness to give thanks to those who've earned it.

To start off, I'd like to express my thankfulness for blankets. They are cozy, and warm, and they smell nice. I love blankets. I wish I could wear one at work... but alas, I work outside the home, and people would think me strange should I show up in the tasting room with a down comforter draped across my shoulders. One of my great regrets...

Thank you, world, for Washington state. I don't have much to compare it to, seeing as though I've lived in it my entire life (oh God, how lame?!), but it's beyond dece. It has lakes, rivers and oceans, cities and small towns, rain forests, regular forests, deserts and mountains, and Pullman. It is spectacular. And it's shaped cool, not like one of those Dakotas or Tennessee. W (clap, clap, clap) A (clap, clap, clap) S (clap) H (clap) I (clap, clap, clap).... ugh, you get the idea. Jebus, you know, that's a lot of claps. Well, I suppose it is the anthem of a college town... Ha.

What else, what else. Ahhh, DVR, how I love you so. Thank you for letting me watch my shows without having to sit through all those dumb ass Roni Deutch ads. When the day comes that I move into Megan's and have to give up the fast forward feature... I'm sure I'll die a little bit inside. Damn. DAMN!

Hmmm... Oh, thank you Mark Zuckerberg, for selling out majorly and making Facebook available to my GRANDMOTHER. Do you know how bad I feel denying my Grandma's friend request? I just let it sit there, along with my mother's and various aunts and uncles, leering at me. They leer. Let us be your friend, Elizabeth, they say. And let my debauched haven become some unfortunate version of familial show and tell? Fat chance! "And here, Grandma, is a photo of my 3rd beer bong of the night."

I'm not the same person to you all as I am to my Grandma. To her I'm somewhat intelligent, sincere, and an all-around decent human being. She calls me, "Lovey Dovey", for Christ's sake. It was bad enough senior year when I was crowned Prom princess (less 'crowned' and more 'lost-but-still-given-a-tiara-and-title-by-default') and had to explain to her why people were yelling "BOOZE!" at me on stage, and what it meant, exactly, when they asked me about a Dairy Queen spoon... Yeah, thank you very much.

Speaking of Facebook, thanks to whomever decided it was okay to say whatever the hell you want on your status updates. It's almost always some crazy girl bitching about the idiots who wade in her cesspool of dating. "So-and-so thinks guyz r the BIGGEST PEICES OF SHIT EVERR. All guys. All of them. Especialy u, Fred. I hate u. U RUINED MY LIFE. N u stole my car! N I kno it was u callin all those hookers n shit... I pay for ur phone! I hate all men. There scum! But not u, Daddy. I luv u." ... Ugh. These typo-riddled rants are usually followed by a slew of commenting supporters, their grammatical prowess paralleled in the original post. If we're really lucky, it's the guy in question answering back. "Bitch u don't know me!" Also, how hard is it to spell out the word 'you'? Really, people.

It's my personal belief that any guy who would date a girl with no observable social awareness deserves to be mistreated in cyberspace. And any girl who's so pathetic as to use Facebook to alleviate the stress of dating such a nutbag deserves him as well. Get a life. Or don't, because I seriously love reading how psychotic you are. ...Hmm. Maybe I'm the one who needs a life. (in the crazy girls' defense, it's been my experience that we don't start out that way... it's you boys who drive us to the edge of our sanity...)

While we're on the subject of people who make me feel better about myself--- a big thanks goes to reality TV and just about everyone in it, because without you all as such sparkling examples of humanity, I'd feel like a real ass most of the time. Thanks for keeping me in check and showing me how truly normal I am.

Thanks 12-year molars, for finally gracing me with your presence. You've been 11 years in the making. Wisdom teeth? I have none. Say what you will.

Thank you, thank you, Steve Jobs, for creating a whole heap of shiny, expensive products that I don't really need, and never really thought I wanted, until I saw you explaining their gloriousness in a keynote.

Thanks Bank of America, for sending me a Cougar debit card. It brightens my day every time I make a purchase. It's especially exciting when I get 20% cash back on Cougar gear, like red solo cups, ping pong balls, and Busch Light.

Ooo, I should also thank Wikipedia, for giving me endless (if not false) information at my fingertips. Though I won't be completely appreciative until I have my own Wikipedia entry, declaring me the smartest, funniest, and perhaps the best person in the world.

I'd like to give a shout out to Christian Louboutin for making such lust-worthy, completely amazing high heels. Oh, and Christian, while I've got you here, I would like to un-thank you for pricing them at $800 a pair. It's a bit steep for someone who majored in English, if you know what I mean...

Also, while I'm un-thanking people, I'd like to un-thank God for making me 5'11". I want to wear Louboutins at my wedding, God, but you've made this nearly impossible. Do you know how hard it is to find an intelligent, rich, gorgeous guy who's 6'5", who happens to be spectacularly witty and interesting and perhaps foreign, who also wants to put up with me for as long as we both shall live? Of course you know how hard it is... you only made one of them. And for some reason, he's not returning my calls (I'm talking to you, Alexander Skarsgard... Marry me.) But, jokes on you, God. My knees are double-jointed, so I'll just stand kind of weird and settle for 6'2". HaHA!

Muchas gracias, tequila, for being AWESOME. I love you. Probably a little too much.

Thank you, texting. Now I barely have to talk to anyone, and it's fabulous. Sans the occasional typo that misconstrues an entire message, you are great. You're concise, timely, and sort of discreet- except today when I literally walked into a Hanukkah display at Target whilst texting Justin a picture of a menorah. That was not discreet. It would've seemed hate crime-ish, had I not immediately stooped to stow the white and blue candles back on their shelf... Sorry, Moses.

I guess I should thank all whom I consider my friend. I seriously have no idea why most of you have stuck around. I think it's that by now, I know too much about you, and at our age it's hard to break in new friends, and even harder to find ones that will be accepting of the annoying qualities we all seem to possess. Love you guys.

And last, but certainly not least, thanks Mom and Dad... I thank you for a lot of things, but mostly for not putting me up for adoption once you realized how strange I actually am :)

Happy Thanksgiving, everybody!

Tequila shots Wednesday night? I'll text you.

oh, dear me...

I was shuffling through my iPod the other day when Brad Paisley's Letter to Me came on. I thought to myself, "Why the hell did I ever download this song?" and quickly pushed 'next', only for Baz Luhrman's Everybody's Free (to Wear Sunscreen) to blast into the air around me.

I glanced about, hoping that no one would overhear my awful picks. You see, I tend to listen to my music very loud, ergo anyone within a 30 foot radius can usually decipher the lyrics flowing through my earbuds. I judge people quite harshly by their musical choices, for instance, right now I'm sitting in a parking lot, penning this to the soulful rhythm of Purple Rain. Who in their right mind would diss Purple Rain? ... What, no love for Prince? Hark, what blasphemy! It's a fantastic song, and you know it... But I digress. The fact that I followed a so-so country jam with an even stranger non-song was unforgivable. What next, Nickelback? Hah, just kidding. I'd shoot myself. Seriously.

Anyways, for some reason I kept listening to the Sunscreen song. I've always liked the one line: "Don't worry about the future ... ... The real troubles in your life are apt to be the things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindsides you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday." Kind of morbid, I'll admit, but I love the imagery. I can see myself sitting in my car on an idle Tuesday, the clock striking 4 as a semi careens my way... and suddenly I'm HIT!!#@*&$... with the realization that I should probably be at work, or something.

It didn't take but a moment to understand how serendipitous it was that these two songs played back-to-back. Obviously, Jesus (or Steve Jobs, whatevs) wanted me to blog a little old 'letter to me'.

I decided to write this letter to a 5 year old me, because not only was I a gifted reader with one hell of a vocabulary at that age, but also, I'm pretty sure age 5 is right when I started to fuck everything up. So here we go...


Dear Liz,

First of all, your name is Elizabeth. I know, it's long, and your hasty 8 year old self will want to shorten it to something that can be scribbled in an instant... but you will rue the day (rue, I tell you!) that you choose to go by 'Liz'. It's obnoxious, and too short and it's a bit onomatopoeia-ish. And to be honest, everyone's going to call you Booze, anyway. It's a long story. I'll explain later.

Speaking of days you will 'rue', one blissful 5th grade afternoon, you'll be accosted by a boy named Jevon. He'll be the one throwing water at you. You'll forgive him this, almost immediately- because you'll think him kind of cute. This is all an act- a trick of the light, I say! RUN. Run away from him, and never look back. If you don't cut him out of your life right then and there, he'll torture you for long as you both shall live...

Just to further illustrate how imperative it is to your sanity that you avoid and ignore him, let us take a stroll down memory lane... At age 16, after you see the Texas Chainsaw Massacre with all of your friends, you'll go home, so glad that you're not one of those silly girls who gets scared by silly movies. Cue Jevon, who will be waiting outside your bedroom window, revving a circular saw. He's also the one who dresses as a clown not once, but twice, all for your 'benefit'. You're afraid of clowns, but, by now, you already know this. His shenanigans will only cement your stance. Senior year he'll tell your government teacher that you have a knife in your backpack, which by then will be quite an offense... but you'll be granted clemency due to the fact that his only proof was an AIM account he purported as yours with the moniker 'knifeinmypack', and a hand-drawn picture of a cleaver that he stuffed in your bag. Once you've enrolled at WSU, he'll already have told all his friends (he has, surprisingly, many) that you're a heroin addict (you are not) who's had 9 abortions (of which you've had none)... And one time, he'll push you and you'll trip and go flying into a wall, bounce off a fire extinguisher and land on your ass. He'll laugh at this.

Speaking of which, you're unbalanced. Not in like, a schizo way, but more in the way that you fall down a lot. Realize this, and move on. Don't go rollerblading, snowboarding, skateboarding, or walking down B Street. This will save you a dislocated shoulder, bruised hip, bruised ego, the knees of two different pairs of jeans, a pair of aviator sunglasses, your left ankle and your sanity.

Regardless of your vigilance, you will never use the words 'supper' or 'soda' in normal conversation, and you aren't really ambidextrous. Why must you try to be so strange? The oboe? Really?! Get over yourself, kid. You're going to be weird enough without going out of your way to do so. Also, you pronounce 'crayon' wrong. Seriously. It's not 'cran'- it's 'cray-on'. People will make fun of you for this. And while I'm clearing up some egregious errors in your thought processes and pronunciations, I might as well mention these: islands are not floating pieces of land, hearts aren't shaped like hearts, and the lyrics are, "Don't go chasing waterfalls, please stick to the rivers and the lakes that you used to", not, "Don't go Jason waterfalls, blistex to the rivers and the lakes that you used to"...

Enough with the overalls. After age two, they cease to be precious and turn into pathetic.

Sometime in early grade school (between 1st and 2nd grade, to be sort-of exact), a freckle will appear on your lip. It's not pen, regardless of how many misguided, nosy strangers (and Grandma!) try to tell you to wipe it off your face. Even after you assure them that it's not pen, that it's permanent, they'll still stare at you, an air of doubt in their gaze... Get used to this. It happens once a week.

Lots of girls are impetuous, unreasonable and a bit creepy- and you are one of them even though you consider yourself to be sooooo balanced and normal and cool. You're not. Sorry.

Try to write a book about vampires that's actually good before 2005- because after that they become sparkly, thus making the entire genre worthless. Also, invest in Apple or something. Oh, and Y2K? Total BS. I'll let you know about this 2012 nonsense... or maybe I won't :/

Really, little Elizabeth... how many Beanie Babies does one actually need?

There will be a time in your adolescence that you decide to throw a party at your parent's house. FYI, someone leaves a Smirnoff Ice in the microwave... Your friends are cool. And just so you know... your friend Nick's going to tell your cousin Chris about the party, who's going to tell your aunt Elinor who's going to tell your mom. You don't get into trouble though, so chill out. Have a drink, or eight... you were a real bitch that night.

On that same note... you keep thinking vodka is your friend. IT DOES NOT LIKE YOU.

Relax about the little things, because chances are, they don't really matter anyway. Pay attention in class, and quit scribbling all over your notebooks, you're wasting paper. Be nicer to people because as the years go by you'll feel bad that you weren't.

Unfortunate things will happen. People will disappoint you. And you're going to disappoint yourself, more times than I'd like to admit- but that's kind of what life's about. You try things out, you make mistakes, you (hopefully) learn from them, and you get up and do it all over again. Sooner or later you'll come to the realization that the past is the past, the future may or may not be completely fucked- but life goes on. Just live. Just breathe. Have fun and be sincere and most of all, be present. From what I can tell you'll have good days and bad, but they're two sides of the same coin, you can't have one without the other. And maybe the odds are stacked in your favor, because so far, life's been pretty damn good.

Just do your best, so you can look back with no regrets, proud of what you've accomplished and without all those obnoxious, nagging, "what if" scenarios.

You've got one shot at this.

Be good.

Sincerely,

Booze